I am in a state where I couldn't understand about my own self anymore Lately, I decided to try new things Like being independent with my own self Or am I way too far From people around I wont be relying on others anymore The one who I should depend on Is my own self Usually I am so excited when I would get into new places, Get to know new people, learn about new things I have never done before But this time I couldn't feel that excitement I could only feel The fears through my whole body As I was trembling yesterday I could feel that I was so scared That I couldn't make it That I couldnt through this important phase 00.45am thoughts