2017

I am in a state
where I couldn't understand
about my own self anymore

Lately, I decided to try new things
Like being independent with my own self
Or am I way too far
From people around

I wont be relying on others anymore
The one who I should depend on
Is my own self

Usually I am so excited
when I would get into new places,
Get to know new people,
learn about new things
I have never done before

But this time
I couldn't feel that excitement
I could only feel
The fears through my whole body
As I was trembling yesterday

I could feel that
I was so scared
That I couldn't make it
That I couldnt through this important phase

00.45am thoughts